I had been asking God to send me a good man for the longest. I had the seemingly perfect life. Full time job as a manager , in college , running my own business , and a blog, had my own car and I paid my own bills .The only thing that seems to be missing was a significant other. All of the other girls who didn't work nearly as hard as me had boyfriends but I didn't and I just felt like I deserved one. I moved to Florida for a while doing a Disney Internship and had a few flings there but nothing that lasted when I got back home to Chicago. I already knew everyone in my hometown and I didn't want to date any of them. I started looking at my campus but let's face it COD (College Of Dreams) Is so antisocial I had no luck there .I started looking on all the dating sites (yea it got that bad) and it was terrible. All of the guys online wanted hookups and that's just not my style. After a few weeks on the sites I met a really sweet, attractive guy who was also God fearing. This guy was perfect he had goals, was in college, and went to church and most importantly he lifted my spirit up. He encouraged me and told me I could do anything I wanted and how successful I would be. His number one goal was to make me feel good as a woman. I woke up every morning to good morning beautiful went to sleep to goodnight beautiful this is what I had been wanting. So here he is the guy I had been asking for right in my face and for some reason I found myself pulling away from him. I found myself finding every reason why this relationship wouldn't work instead of why it would work. The truth is I worked 12-8 every day, when I wasn’t working my job I was running my business or writing blog posts or at the gym or at church. I was way too busy building my empire to have a relationship. When you make the decision to be a #GirlBoss you have to be fully committed to it. It’s actually kind of sad to think of the sacrifices I have to make to be as successful as I want to be but the level of success I want to reach I cannot be distracted. My life is all work and no play. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I will retire at a young age and be incredibly happy in the future. With a boy around I just couldn't focus on work and I felt conflicted I wanted to spend my free time grinding and not being with some guy. Timing is everything in life and I truly feel he just presented himself to me at the wrong time. I believe that if had come at a later time when i was a little more established in life and had more things going for myself it would have been different . I also now not to ask for things I am not ready for, from now on I know I have to stay focused and keep going at my goals because there will always be another boy .When will I be ready for a relationship? Maybe when I finally conquer the world , but for now Im still Single and Hustlin.
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